Stay with me a little bit longer

Here's a little something for my precious friends who have made it easier to survive life in SRM

Strangers to friends we became

So close in such a small span of time
A silent promise that we will remain
Pillars for each other, partners in crime

Each of you gave a different meaning to my life
So many memories that I will cherish forever
You’ve stood by me through every little strife
Please stay with me a little bit longer

Valya and Sravanthi, my first friends in SRM
I can’t imagine surviving the hostel without you two

From mid-night maggies to late-night stories
Chicken pickle, food court noodles, kurkure and bhel puri mix
Singing, dancing, screaming, we would forget all our worries
And why shouldn’t we? There wasn’t anything we three couldn’t fix

You laughed at my clumsiness but you pampered me the most
You helped me grow, you made me stronger
I changed my room for you and I’d do it again for sure
If only you would stay with me a little bit longer

Shagun Batra, what do I say?
Your senseless talks always brightens my day

We make plans like we’d take over the world
But execute none of them anyway
Our laziness matches with our craziness, girl
I’d blindly count on you any day 

This bench is empty without you, kameeni dhinchak
Talking, sleeping, eating, fighting, there’s nothing we haven’t done during class
But you’ve helped me in ways, words aren’t enough to thank
Common enemies, non-stop chattering, there’s no extreme left for us to cross

Great minds think alike, so true when it comes to us
Clothes, shoes, songs and blogs, and all the depressing thoughts we weather
I’ll do more nautanki, take more pictures of you and pose too if I must
If it’ll make you stay with me a little bit longer

Nivedita Saily, my travel buddy
For all the discoveries we make about MTC

So many silly and crazy things we do
We always end up as the noisiest two
From dogs to kites, from friends to foes
We talk about everything that we know

My mornings would be so boring if not for you
Thanks to all the chapad chapad we do,
I don’t mind getting scoldings from all kind of strangers
As long as you stay with me a little bit longer

My favourite victim, Aamir, Tinman, Timbaktu
There’s an endless list of the names I’ve kept for you

I’ve never met a more complicated person
Or anyone who lives with so much curiosity
I’ve tortured you so much without any reason
But you never, ever gave up on me

All those fights, with you, for you, each day
Moments I’ve wanted to strangle your neck
You’d always smile and say “theek hai"
And I’d be wondering, “what the heck!”

I can’t thank you enough for being there
Every time I needed you, my evil partner
And I promise to torture you for the rest of my life
If you promise to stay with me a little bit longer

My punching sack, my shoulder to cry on
Angu Dungu, there’s no one else I’d rather rely on

Each new day is like an adventure with you
Bike rides, silly fights, crazy memories we make each day
There’s so much you know and so much you do
Of all the friends who come and go, you’re the one I know will stay

You know the easiest ways to make me smile
You’re more than a friend to me, words are not enough to explain
You can be so sweet and so rude at the same time
At times you leave me so confused, I can’t even complain

I can never stay mad at you no matter how much I try
Coz I know we can make it all work when we’re together
Even if it were my last day and you were standing beside

All I’d want is for you to stay with me a little bit longer

There are so many more of you I haven't mentioned
But you mean no less, I just want to thank you all
For every little priceless memory we shared together
How I wish they lasted a little bit longer


Copyright © Anushya Bernard 2009 (India; anushya.me@hotmail.com) 

"Not Mine"

I've got this feeling running through my head

Thoughts unspoken, building bridges in my brain

No one to listen, words remain unsaid

My voice is mute, only actions can be read

I speak without a tone and my heart bears the pain

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The air I breathe inspires me to write

And I try to put my thoughts down on paper

A song, as it turns out, about darkness and light

Lyrics you don't understand, someone, somewhere might

So my mid grows calm now as my song gets over
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Seven months have gone since I wrote my first song
Someone, somewhere might have picked it up from the trash
I barely remember the words, oh its been so long
But I remember the feeling that grew on me so strong
My song is on the radio, as my memories flash
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My words now have music along with a voice

Chords on guitar, oh it sounds so fine

My feelings are sung out by all girls and boys

But I can never sing, can't even speak by choice

My words sound beautiful, but this voice is not mine.

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Copyright © Anushya Bernard 2009 (India; anushya.me@hotmail.com)

What Makes Me

Stranded in the dark for so long

Empty streets and broken bridges have been my path

Never knowing where do I belong

Lost and forgotten, trying to follow my heart

Strangers, they come and go

Friends and family promise to stay

The world below my feet, rotating so slow

Nothing changes, except night and day

Surviving each day, no purpose, no goal

Lifeless I lay, searching for a soul

A passion, a drive, something crazy

I need to figure out, what makes me, ME

At the end of the tunnel I see a light 
Still afraid of the steps I take in this path

A constant reminder, I'm not losing this fight

Against myself, I wont lose my heart

We rise then we fall, and then we rise again

Each morning we wake up to a brand new day

Face your fears, time always heals the pain

Where there is a will, there is a way, they say.

Copyright © Anushya Bernard 2009 (India; anushya.me@hotmail.com) 

No One Just Like Me

I wake up in the morning

With a smile on my face

A sweet sadness in these eyes

But I walk out with grace

I’ve been down, been pushed around

But I’m not giving up

I’ll freak out, I’ll flip out

But I’m not breaking down

I breathe out to the ocean,

I sing out to the sea

There’s a whisper in the waves

That says “there’s no one just like me”

I walk to the broken bridge

And I laugh at the irony

There’s a carving in its cracks

That reads “there’s no one just like me”

I dream of my mother, holding her child

Blissful, the innocence, and the way that it feels

I smile, she smiles, there's a twinkle in her eyes

That says “there’s no one just like me”

I walk back home and I don’t feel so low

The girl in my mirror smiles at me

There’s a story in her smile

That reads “there’s no one just like me”

Her hair is always in a perfect mess

And she never wears the perfect dress

This girl, they say, has been through a lot

But this girl is everything they think she is not!

Copyright © Anushya Bernard 2009 (India; anushya.me@hotmail.com) 

Little Things

The first cry of a new born child,

A little boy’s confession for having lied,

A young teenager finding the love of his life,

Or an 80 year old man hugging his wife.

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A little help when you need it the most,

Someone to love you even at your worst,

A few kind words when you’re out of mind,

Or a hand to hold when you’re falling behind.

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When you miss someone and remember old memories,

When you kiss someone and make new melodies,

When you find shelter in torrent rain,

Or a healing touch when you’re in pain.

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A little cool breeze in a sunny afternoon,

When you search for something and find it soon.

When you’re thirsty, a glass of wine

Or meeting your best friend after a really long time.

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The warmth of the sun on a very cold day,

When you’re lost and finally find your way.

And when you’re burned out, a friendly smile.

These are the LITTLE THINGS that make Life worthwhile.

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Copyright © Anushya Bernard 2009 (India; anushya.me@hotmail.com)

I love myself when I am loved by you

I love my name when it is called by you

I love my voice when I’m talking to you

I love my smile when the reason is you

And I love my life when I’m with you.

 

I love my eyes when they look at you

I love my face when it is seen by you

I love my future if it is gonna be with you

Like I love my present, which is you.

 

I love my mind when the thought is about you

I love my heart when it beats for you

I love my soul when it loves you

As I love myself when I’m loved by you!

The Turning Point

How much ever close friends we may be,

There’s always a difference which we will see;

That I’m a girl and you’re a boy

I watch Barbie, you watch troy!

 

A boy and a girl can’t just be friends they say,

I argued so much, it isn’t that way;

If that was the case then why is it now

That our friendship is turning into what they call as love?

 

The comfort level we share is something special,

Which is why I said our friendship is real;

Then why is it that now love is overtaking

And playing dangerous games with our feelings!

 

Don’t hide from yourself, the truth I can see,

You’re afraid of falling in love, your avoiding me;

But it’s up to you to rise or fall

Rise in friendship or choose love as all!

 

If you ask me, I’ll say the same,

Not all relations have a name

Now on yourself, don’t take the blame

Because love and friendship are all in the game!

 

Its time now that we stand to face life,

That has leaded us into this weird strife;

We can’t let love win over friendship’s glory

If so it happens, we’ll have to feel sorry!

If Only...

Something in your heart speaks to me,

Something in your voice sings to me,

Something in your eyes shows me,

If only you could express what it’s meant to be…

 

Feelings unexpressed, thoughts unbridled,

Words unspoken, actions unseen,

If only you could understand

What they actually mean…

 

I try to talk but I’m always lost.

I see you and my heart beats fast.

I see your face in every star.

If only I could tell how precious you are…

 

You saw me that day and I saw you,

But you walked away and left me in blue.

If only you could know how I feel…

Then my wounds would surely heal.

 

If only you could read my tears…

What they say, if you could hear

Things would be different, I’m telling you for sure

For your heart is innocent, precious and pure!

 

If I was blind

I wonder if I were to be blind,

Wouldn’t my life have been left behind?

Could I be able to see the sun so bright?

Or the dynamic beauty of its light!

 

I can’t see the little birds in the sky,

Or wonder how they manage to fly.

I would have to live with imagination all the time,

Oh I wouldn’t even know what is or isn’t mine!

 

I will have to believe whatever other people say,

I will believe even if they call night as day.

I can’t differentiate between colors,

I identity them by the fragrance of flowers.

 

A tear and a smile would be the same to me,

Because the fact is I cannot see.

It’s like having the lock but no key,

I can’t even see Kaka playing football on T.V.!

 

I wouldn’t know the variety in bikes and cars,

Or the glory of twinkle twinkle little star.

I wouldn’t know the different shapes of the moon,

There would be no difference in evening or noon!

 

Now that I’m sure if I were blind,

My life will surely be left behind.

Hats-off to those who still manage to survive,

They have the courage to face their life!

Feeling Sick

I’m sick of this world, and all its elements,

I hate this place; there is no care for sentiments!

Why do people try being someone that they are not?

Just be yourself, don’t you know that life is short?

 

I’m sick of this fakeness, everyone is pretending,

The value of reality is next to its ending!

Why do people go for the diplomatic way of living?

It doesn’t help, what is this life giving?

 

I’m sick of their lies, everyday something new,

Looks like originality is lost in the sky that’s blue!

Why do people choose to take the easy way out?

There’s no one to listen even if I shout!

 

My thoughts like unknown words drift and fade away,

Since no on cares about all that I have to say!

I feel like a stone in a deserted island,

These are my feelings no one will understand!

Falling In Love

Surrender is all I’m asking for

Take me away, away from this world

To some place that is far

So far that it can’t be told

 

Take me to the world inside your heart

Where darkness and light combine as one

Let me feel your love, put it on a chart

Where I can figure out what I’ve become

 

Take me to the paradise of pleasure

Where love is constant as the stars above

You are more worthy to me than any treasure

And I’m so proud to say that you are my love

 

You’re so protective, so understanding,

You’re my Mr. Perfect, loving and caring.

I know that life is too hard to choose,

But you are the one too hard to loose!

Do you know?

Do you know how it hurts when a heart aches?

Do you know how it feels when a dream breaks?

Do you know the pain of having what you can’t take?

Do you know how it kills when your smile is fake?

 

When guilt rips your heart in two,

When your soul goes away from you,

When you feel empty and there’s nothing you can do,

Do you know what u go through?

 

Do you know the pain of solitude?

Do you know the misery of a soul that is nude?

Do you know how hard it gets to be rude?

Do you know how it is to live in a world so crude?

 

When you feel you’re left behind

When you search and you can’t find

When you have completely lost your mind

Do you see the sight of a heart that’s blind?

 

Do you know how it feels to stand alone?

Do you know the discomfort to silently moan?

Do you know? No, you don’t!

It is not your heart that has been burnt.